Humbled

I just realized that I got frustrated this morning when I could not use this new hair clip I bought because my hair is too thick for it- but in a few months my mom might not have any hair! Wow.

The clip is really a plastic circle with a hinge that allows it to open- there is rubber in the middle that "holds" the hair- well it won't hold mine- i can't shut it. Bummer, but wow do I feel bad for complaining.

My eyes burn from crying yesterday- crying from shock, being scared, and feeling like no matter what I do for my mom now it will not be enough. REally that is dumb of me- no matter what I do, she will say it is too much!

I love my mom.

I also cannot wait until Neil gets back! 4 days down, 6 to go!

So far, so good

Were I as creative as my cousin, I would start this off with a bit of Frank's lyrics, but alas, I am not. (I am also entirely too tired to think about any song other than the one playing behind me.)

My mom has cancer.

This is new. Well, fairly. She was in surgery yesterday, and they took everything out, including a grapefruit sized mass.

Luckilly, its only stage 1, and does not look like it has spread. So this is good. What's bad is telling your best friend's parents (I am still really close with the family, and if I had not called, they would have found out from my grandma at church and called me)- when your best friend died of a form of cancer a few years ago. And finding out her little sister as a bone problem in her foot that means she will have to have surgery to avoid losing the foot- she's 12!!!!!

A few of the "surveys" that run around the internet ask a question:
If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

Up until now, I would have answered- Breathing underwater.. Yeah, flying would be cool, but think about being able to dive down- no snorkel, no scuba gear, and just swim!

Today, more than anything else, I wish I had the power to heal- take pain and illness from others and onto myself.

Look Mom! I did it!

Wow. Who is the cool chick now huh? I just decided that having one blog (hah) on this other website is not good enough and I decided to log on here. Right now, I'm sitting at my desk at work (its after hours) and the AC is turned off. Its warm in here, I'm hot, but not yet hungry or bored enough to leave.

So, here and now I am here to say 'Yay for people with a smile'.

Thank you!

Why? Why not! I'm not perfect (don't you know it!) and I am not always happy go lucky. I used to be. Now I'm working towards it again, but I still have my moments (don't we all). But I have always realized the value of a smile- hey its easier than a hug...

I once had a wise teacher who answered every "How are you?" with "Wonderful!" Why? Simple. Attitude. When you say "wonderful" you can't say it with a grunt, you have to sound wonderful too- and if you start sounding wonderful, you start feeling wonderful. If you sound wonderful, and feel wonderful, others around you might start seeing how wonderful it is to feel wonderful, and wonderfully start answering they are wonderful too. Wonderful isn't it? Dr. Oz was a wonderful teacher to have.

I also don't like working with people who are frustrated- so I do what I can to ensure their sanity... This usually involves several random comments, or a funny look that will usually ensure their eruption of laugher.

And when I am not in the greatest mood, sometimes all it takes for me is a simple smile to get me going again.

So Smile. It might make someone's day...